the gory bits.

Im high on caffeine right now so I can't sleep which I can't blame to anyone else rather than myself really. Well I planned this staying-awake-all-night-trip earlier this evening slash earlier last night, since standard time wise, it is morning already. Im sorry I'm not making any sense right now and I'm so lazy to start this paragraph all over again so yah.. I am not capable of any form of sleep so I'm resolving to spend my waking hours left in writing this rubbish post.

A while ago I was watching this movie, 'Like Crazy', which took me I guess two failed attempts first before getting the right copy and two days to finish the whole downloading process, given the very poor speed of our net connection. 

“I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it, but I didn’t, not really. Only the smudgeness of it; the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it. I didn’t realize it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. Because it’s the halves that halve you in half. I didn’t know, don’t know, about the in-between bits; the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me.”

There is something about the bold portrayal of reality that draws my attention to films like this. The ardent attempt to not stray into settling for a predictable, destiny-gamed tale is for me a very original choice or preference when it comes to film making. I understand that I don't share this perception with everyone, that the ability to appreciate movies like this comes with one's maturity because I myself can truthfully admit that the high school version of me will not give this piece of art a chance. Because in that age, my point of view when it comes to must-watch films stems into an assumption that it must have the teeny bopper handsome leading guy factor in it. And Jacob from this movie doesn't quite really fit in that description.

I think it is the beauty of simplicity, of not over glittering most of the scenes, that made this film really stand out for me. That even if you have never actually been in that exact same situation as to that of the characters, you can still put yourself in their spot and delve into the raw emotions that they were struggling through. 

P.S

The female lead character's name is Anna Maria and I swear in the name of merlin that we had the same nail color in that wedding scene they have. (I just need to insert this info somewhere to satisfy my narcissism).