mixtape: Take a Chance.

(click on picture to open playlist on a separate tab) 

"The only people who see the whole picture are the ones who step out of the frame" 

- Salman Rushdie

                               Track list:

                                                  1. Break Me Out - The Rescues

                                         2. Love, Save The Empty - Erin McCarley

                                         3. Pumped Up Kicks - Sophie Madeleine (cover)

                                         4. Carousel - Vanessa Carlton

                                         5. Read My Mind - The Killers

                                         6. Home - Gabrielle Aplin

                                         7. Skinny Love - Cameron Mitchell (cover)

                                         8. Distance - Christina Perri feat. Jason Mraz

                                         9. You - The Pretty Reckless

                                        10. Tongue Tied - Group Love

                                        11. Anna Sun - Walk The Moon

                                        12. Questions - Bamboo

4 months hiatus.

Sleep in the morning, work at night and eating in between - that has been my routine these past 4 months and counting, well except for random hang-outs with friends and such.


I wasn't planning to write anything today, just wanted to catch up with whats happening in the interweb, but here you go, I guess I've been dragging this task long enough now.. so let me just leave a little note here as a reminder that yes, Im still alive.

all I need is YOU.

Understand your darkness and it will vanish; 

then you will know what LIGHT is. 

Understand your nightmare for what it is and it will stop; 

then you will wake up to REALITY. 

Understand your false beliefs and they will drop; 

then you will know the taste of HAPPINESS. 

                       
                           -Anthony De Mello 

mixtape: Change Your Perspective.

(click on picture to open playlist on a separate tab)

"Let yourself go. Pull out from the depths those thoughts that you do not understand, and spread them out in the sunlight and know the meaning of them." —  E.M. Forster

                                 

                                 Track list: 

                                                      1. Float on - Modest Mouse

                                         2. We Are Young - Fun. feat. Janelle Monáe

                                         3. Get Burned - Sleeper Agent

                                         4. My Body - Young the Giant

                                         5. Girls with Accents - Fences

                                         6. Camp Out - An Horse

                                         7. Maracas - Mates of State

                                         8. Bullet - Steel Train

                                         9. Charlie Brown - Coldplay

                                       10. Lazyeye - Silversun Pickups

                                       11. Malibu - Hole

                                       12. Some Are Lakes - Land Of Talk

                                       13. Contrails - Astronautalis ft. TRQ

the gory bits.

Im high on caffeine right now so I can't sleep which I can't blame to anyone else rather than myself really. Well I planned this staying-awake-all-night-trip earlier this evening slash earlier last night, since standard time wise, it is morning already. Im sorry I'm not making any sense right now and I'm so lazy to start this paragraph all over again so yah.. I am not capable of any form of sleep so I'm resolving to spend my waking hours left in writing this rubbish post.

A while ago I was watching this movie, 'Like Crazy', which took me I guess two failed attempts first before getting the right copy and two days to finish the whole downloading process, given the very poor speed of our net connection. 

“I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it, but I didn’t, not really. Only the smudgeness of it; the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it. I didn’t realize it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. Because it’s the halves that halve you in half. I didn’t know, don’t know, about the in-between bits; the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me.”

There is something about the bold portrayal of reality that draws my attention to films like this. The ardent attempt to not stray into settling for a predictable, destiny-gamed tale is for me a very original choice or preference when it comes to film making. I understand that I don't share this perception with everyone, that the ability to appreciate movies like this comes with one's maturity because I myself can truthfully admit that the high school version of me will not give this piece of art a chance. Because in that age, my point of view when it comes to must-watch films stems into an assumption that it must have the teeny bopper handsome leading guy factor in it. And Jacob from this movie doesn't quite really fit in that description.

I think it is the beauty of simplicity, of not over glittering most of the scenes, that made this film really stand out for me. That even if you have never actually been in that exact same situation as to that of the characters, you can still put yourself in their spot and delve into the raw emotions that they were struggling through. 

P.S

The female lead character's name is Anna Maria and I swear in the name of merlin that we had the same nail color in that wedding scene they have. (I just need to insert this info somewhere to satisfy my narcissism).

rehistradong nars.

THANK YOU DADDY GOD! (that's all there is I wanna say)

just say YES.

First of I wanna  offer my two thumbs up to all the gentlemen who dared to do the craziest and most creative ways to ask the woman they deeply love to be with them forever or for the rest of their lives at least. This is me being an emotional marshmallow and all... and I know I may not be in a 'i-can-relate' situation right now but I can't help it! I mean darn it! I am a girl and that alone is acceptable enough for an excuse.


I think I have already mentioned here, in one of my previous posts, about  my unswerving love for wedding videos (specially the well filmed ones) and now I am finding myself falling big time in love with that gutsy act that would later result to weddings: marriage proposal.

I may not be in the position to describe what it feels like to be proposed to, but I bet with every heartbeat that it must be sublime.. to have your significant other get down on one knee and make you feel like you're THE one, that choosing to be with you will never be a mistake, that you are worthy of every effort, and that you are simply enough. 

(this one's got two significant words for me: my name and diseneyland. ♥)

In posting this, all my wishes goes to every hopeful girl (and that includes me) who dreams of having her own MOMENT one day, that when that day comes, may it be what we always imagined it to be and more..

and that most importantly may that guy be sweet enough to have it all filmed for all the world to see.. :D

Royal Albert Hall.

This place plus this wonderful person named Adele is such a perfect pair. Wow! Those lucky peeps who've been there surely had the time of their lives. I'm really just out of words here, she's just so stunning and her voice deserves all the best adjectives to describe with. 

Favorite parts:

1. Chasing Pavements (still my most fave Adele song)

2. Make You Feel My Love (breathtaking!)

3. Can't Make You Love Me & Love Song (Bonnie Raitt & The Cure should just be proud, she gave enough justice to these songs)

4. Someone Like You (my goosebumps were indescribable and I was in tears the whole time)

5. Rolling In The Deep (the beat! makes you will infinite.. best way to the end the show)

You will never regret watching this.. Adele is ♥.

hello 2012.

Yesterday something unexpected happened, one which I'm afraid I can't hash out over here for some privacy concerns, not that I believe anyone really cares to read my rantings here. But yeah.. yesterday something did happen, at first I really couldn't figure out if I was going to be happy or be upset about it 'cause half of my heart says I enjoyed it then the other half wants to feel guilty...but then.. my ego said it was out of my control anyway and I wasn't responsible for initiating it in the first place. That wasn't the first time it happened but it did not occur to me that it may happen again or that i should expect it to happen again. It troubled my sanity and I felt so confused and I hate feeling confusion after having to go through everything I did just to set my perspectives clear and straight. 

Do I regret giving in to yesterday's situation? Was it right to end my year like that? I don't have a straightforward answer.. but I have resolved to just offer gratitude over whatever yesterday brought me. I think that how i reacted to the situation might be considered wrong for a pessimist's point of view, but I'm sorry to say that I'm not like that, I don't hover too long on negative vibrations and that for whatever its worth I settle into just giving gratitude a shot. Gratitude for having been given another time to challenge some welled up emotions and having been able to let maturity deal with it. Knowing that everything always happen for a reason. 

Below is a poem/excerpt I wanna share to you, this moved me in a lot of ways and I hope it does the same thing for you as well..

YOU LEARN

by Jorge Luis Borges

After a while you learn the subtle difference

Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning

and company doesn't mean security

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts

and presents aren't promises

And you begin to accept your defeats

with your head up and your eyes open

with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child

And you learn to build all your roads on today

because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans

and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight

After a while you learn..

that even sunshine burns if you get too much

So you plant your garden and decorate your own soul,

instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers

And you learn that you really can endure.

That you really are strong.

And you really do have worth.

And you learn and learn..

With every goodbye you learn.

So goodbye 2011 and hello 2012! HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! I'm pretty much excited on the things that awaits me this year.. I 've grown tired of making resolutions that's why I'm not making any specifics. I just want this year to be a continuity of the growth (in all aspects) that had accumulated over the last year.

Cheers to a new beginning!.. :]