I'm a complete sucker for wedding videos... They instantly elate my mood, like how chocolate and icecream can.. So when time brings some sappiness and the latter two aren't available, I head to youtubing the above videos.. They're simply my faves if not the best bridal pinoy vids of all time.. Both are beach located, and that's how I forsee my own wedding to look like (come few light years from now).. white sand.. barefoot.. waves.. sunset.. lanterns.. custom-made vows.. and of course a Bob Nicolas, Joey Magbanua or Mayad to do their tricks.. :]
Does that happen to you?.. To be sad with no apparent reason.. It sounded so cynical to me, because how can you be sad if nothing invited sadness. But then, how can the idea of happiness without a cause be much more admissible to think about? Why can't we say we are sad without grounds..and not be scoffed at?
On my way home yesterday I met an acquaintance who told me I looked upset, she asked me why and the only ready answer I could throw at that moment was a plain "warai la" (nothing). That was easier to say than to ramble a list of the superficial things that made me look 'upset'.Things like passing by a funeral march, hearing a crappy sad song and getting emotionally unstable whenever I get my period. So I excused myself before she could say anything about my lousy reply.
This morning wasn't so different as well, maybe it has to do with the weather, this cold cuddle-needing climate that's been bugging my already frenzied hormones. Its like how they say it, the waking up on the wrong side of the bed thing. I think its normal, bad days happen (especially when you're losing blood, literally bleeding.. haha). Isn't it just too much to ask for a happy-everyday?.. Not so good things are bound to happen, we can't control that. And it doesn't make us that less of a person to admit that we feel that way, because as much as we want to we are not and will never be invincible. I remember reading from somewhere that feeling badly, really feeling it, chewing on it and digesting it is often the precursor to not feeling so badly. That once in a while we need to give ourselves permission to feel blue in order to appreciate the sunshine that will happen eventually.
So I guess I just have to be patient with the shivers, a warm blanket, cups of coffee and a great mash-up will be enough to keep me company today. :]
For the first time in 3 straight days I had the luxury of waking up late today. Not the usual 'late' I got myself used to but considering the amount of dysania I painstakingly had to go through the past 3 mornings, 9am is heavenly late enough for me now.
Review was great though.. well the lecturer was. He's got plentiful of jokes prowling inside his pockets, making the 9-hour lecture per day bearable for all of us inside that hall. He practically broke the 'no-green-jokes-rule' the president of the review center told us during the orientation. He's totally THE man for the job.. hands down to him.. :D
So we're done with Fundamentals and Prof. Ad.. we did a total of four 100-item exams, which I managed to score a descent grade. I guess that was a good start since I've been dedicated in decorating my brain with cobweb curtains because of my inability to follow an ideal study habit. :/
Speaking of my hopeless study habit, I'm supposed to read a certain topic tonight and make those wall posts full of nursing laws and normal values of almost everything that is of value (which I think is unnecessary but they reckon that it gives you the I'm-serious-about-passing-the-board feeling...so I subjected myself to have those ready tonight)... But unfortunately (blame the interweb) I saw this trailer just an hour ago..
and I'm in love with it..which means I need to watch it... which means I'm already loading the whole movie right this very minute.. which means I might resort to putting off my original plans for tonight.. which concludes that my study habit is really hopeless.
BUT (this is a damn good but) I think, I can manage to stay up late tonight and do all those things I have to get done since I don't need to wake up early tomorrow anyway.. fair enough?. hehehe.. now the question is, can I ????.
Now what did I said in my very first post?.. I'm halfway through July and I only managed to post twice.. I kept on procrastinating this past 2 weeks, telling myself that whatever happened that day can wait.. and I'll just blog about it the next day.. yah right! what about a lot of next days?!.. :D
So anyways, here's what I remembered happened, I went out with friends more than I did last month, I always went home late or worse early in the morning (and I got scolded for that).. I got a severe allergy of a beverage of some kind that prompted me to self-medicate. There was also one boring afternoon I spent listening to Patsy Cline while staring blankly at my room's ceiling. When I think about it now I'm like wtf?! We just can't help to surprise ourselves sometimes. Not that there's something wrong about Patsy's songs, it's just that I don't know if there's anyone out there with the same age as mine who'll have the sanity to do the same thing.. uhmmm.. I guess that's mainly it.. short story shorter: I just wanted to enjoy my last few days before I start my review classes, which by the way will officially start tomorrow.
Yesterday I went to watch the last part of the final installment of the HP series. I had this bittersweet feeling about it, I was so excited to witness how it will look like but something pains me knowing that this is it, it really all ends here. From now on there won't be a next part to look forward to. I've grown attached to Harry maybe because I did literally grew up with him, I was eleven years old at the time the first HP movie was released, and in that film we were at the same age. It's like a chapter of my childhood has now ended. And I'm faced to say goodbye to something I've been holding on for nearly a decade of my life... and that's probably the bitter part. But you know what they say...all good things come to an end.. and all there's left to do is deal with it.
